Sometimes you have to feel the fear and do it anyway. That’s how I felt about stopping drinking. My mind crowded with all the reasons not to stop rather than the positives to be gained. I tried to negotiate with myself, buy myself more time, offer excuses as to why it was a bad idea. My grip on the glass got tighter and my drinking more urgent knowing that the end of our time was approaching ……
Today I was reminded again of that feeling and it ‘gave me a thirst’. I wrote a blog on Soberistas and the kind folk over there said some really nice things about it and encouraged me to stand up and be brave. Again all the reasons why I shouldn’t went through my head.
But I took a deep breath and shared it with Belle. She concurred and said this is good and you should share it with a newspaper and see if they might be interested in publishing it. And again all the negatives swirled up and the thirst reappeared.
But I didn’t drink and I sent it. And now they’ve agreed to publish it and I can’t quite believe it. Alcohol sucks your confidence and makes you feel not capable in so many ways. You become your own worst enemy. But it’s easy to fix if you just put down the glass.
If you had told me 40 days ago that stopping drinking would have led to me being published in a UK national newspaper I’d have laughed and said I’ll have what you’re drinking! What might you achieve if you stop?